Discovering Myself

Ok, so I am sitting here and I’m bored and I still don’t have friends to call on when I’m like this.  They are all busy usually.

Well, I got pulled in by a text from my ex.  What hurts is that I feel kind of insignificant, which is completely not true and only those people that you let in can truly make you feel like that.  It’s the stupidest thing, I know it’s stupid, but it still affects me.

I am more irritated at myself for feeling these things, but it’s human nature I suppose.  And if you don’t feel those things for someone you love, even if they have too many issues for you to deal with, then something is wrong.  You should feel like that if you love someone and they treat you like their plans are more important than you.

Oh well, it will all work out in the end.  I have pretty strong emotions when I love someone, so that comes out.  I am trying to focus on myself for once.  I supported a man for over a year and he did not appreciate it one bit.

I feel desperate, but I’m not desperate.  I am a good looking guy with a huge amount to give someone special.  I do want it returned in similar fashion, but my love is there for the taking.  I am not into the casual encounters, I am very serious about my relationships.  It will take time, I know this, but it still sucks… haha!

To all my friends, thanks for the support and I care for you all.

I still feel a little teary, but that’s to be expected when something doesn’t work out.  Gees, love hurts so much, but I’m refusing to be cynical about it.  I know it exists and I know there is someone that wants what I want.  I will find you… even if I have to hunt you like a wild animal on the Serengeti. (Like my analogy? haha)

Ok, I apparently forgot to put some stuff in my memo. So there are a few elements that MUST be in a memo. I know this after this incident.

1. What is going to occur?
2. Why is it going to occur?
3. When is it going to occur?
4. Who is implementing and responsible for this memo?
5. Who to contact with questions.

That should cover it. Hopefully I won’t forget to include those items. I usually forget the when part… haha

Okey dokey, I didn’t do so hot today, lots of salt!

Place: Thai and Sushi in East Atlanta

Meal: Miso Soup, Edamame (super salty, i love salt!), Spicy Tuna Roll and Eel Roll

Drink: Of course it was WATER!!! DUH!!!

So I think this was a good meal except for the super salt content.  The miso is actually supposed to be super good for you. So there!